I am SO tired.

Really.

I'm 30 weeks pregnant now, as I posted in my last post. I'm exhausted, and big but feeling pretty good emotionally which is really great. In my last three pregnancies I have had huge issues with Anxiety and Depression during my pregnancies. This time around things have mostly stayed in check, although I Have recently (within the last few weeks) had a few panicky moments, and I have been able to calm myself out of them. I am trying to set boundaries for myself, and be able to tell people when its just too much for me. Of course, I don't like to be disappointing, either.

I am really looking forward to our second sons arrival, but I feel like we are totally not ready. Even though I have a long term plan of the way the kids rooms will be set up, right now I cant help but want a nursery for Zachary. (Why does he need a nursery when he will sleep in our room for the most part, and then move into a room with Zeke? I have no idea). I guess it doesn't really make logical sense since I know he wont ever have his own room (at this stage in his life) and the idea of doing a nursery for no reason is dumb, when I can keep using that room as a playroom until later on... but I still want a nursery. It must be pregnancy hormones.

Things with the other kids are good. The younger two are great. Zeke is potty trained now, and Zoey is about to turn two and were working on potty training. Its exciting! Zaynah is still dealing with so much. Poor kid. We love her though and are working through it.

Tony and I are good. Just trucking through life.

Thats all for now, as Im too tired to sit at the computer chair any longer.

Colleen